I find myself at a stand still. For the first time in my life (all 44 yrs of it) my mind is not planning or dreaming about what is next or what is to come.
I've never been here before, this is totally new to me. What do I do here? How do I act? What am I supposed to feel or think? "Nothing." says the voice. "This is where you will finally learn to be still and know that I am God and that I love you more than anyone. That now is the time for you and Me. Focus on my grace. It is here that you will finally learn to trust me and to let me lead you in life."
My insides feel as if they are in slow motion. Like a warm summer sunset with a breeze that wraps it's arms around you is in my heart. My brain tries to pull me out of the stillness and back to the world I remember so well, but with the slightest of cries, I am back in the stillness. All the years of trying to do it on my own have gotten me here. Tired and ready for change. He let me run my race and allowed me to discover that my way never seems to work... for very long. It's like a parent letting a child explore the world and test their boundaries. He never interfered and let me learn it on my own... and now as I stand here exhausted, He claps His hands together and says to me... "Ready?"
I am ready.
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